Day 5- Tempted Again!
I was looking at our snaps today, me and Em. I had gone on okcupid this morning and done some first emails. It's like, the more I'm tempted to contact her, the more I have to be using the dating apps. It's utter hell sometimes not trying to send her a text or email or even call. I have a lot of stuff coming up in my life I'm excited about, started stand up comedy, possible musical collaborators, getting back in shape, starting a podcast even. But I just feel the Em thing is unresolved and I can't find closure. I'm seeing my therapist Friday, maybe he can tell me what I should say if I should at all. I went to a psychic last week who told me that we're still connected somehow, and that eventually that we'll talk again once things are cleared up. I don't know if I should have hope or not for this, it's utter fucking hell. I just think that one email or text can make a difference, but I know it may not. She's so stubborn and bitter tow...